hello final year! (':

salam wbt. 

alhamdulillah, dah jejak kaki masuk final year. yes! final year kan. kelas pon ada 3 ketul je, tu pon xde exam, semua presentation. so sejak beberapa hari ni seharian duduk lab, baca research paper sampai bosan. nak souji(sapu sampah) pon senior tak bagi, dia suruh p study or sembang2 sesama labmate or tengok ja apa orang lain buat. mcm la baru masuk lab semalam, dah setahun dah, but still they are treating me like freshie =.=

penat dgn keadaan yg, "nak kena buat apa ni?" i got the courage masuk bilik sensei n tanya, 

[me] "sensei, forth year sem 7 ni selalu kena buat apa?"

[sensei] "Haa fin. dah jelas dgn masa depan kamu nak buat apa?"

[me] "Dah. Nak balik malaysia" *keyakinan padu*

[sensei] "Balik lepas tu nak buat apa?" 

[me] "Kerja ke sambung belajar ke. nanti dah sampai malaysia nanti saya fikir"

[sensei] "Apa? saya x pernah dgr jawapan mcm ni. orang2 malaysia mmg mcm ni ke? senpai2 malaysia awak tahun lepas semua buat apa skrg?"

[me] "Ada yang dah kerja. ada yg balik malaysia dulu baru cari kerja. tapi biasa kat malaysia dah graduate baru org cari kerja"

[sensei] "ha? saya xkan biarkan student2 saya balik tanpa ada masa depan yg jelas. sem 7 ni sepatutnya KENA BELAJAR UTK AMBIK EXAM MASTER atau CARI KERJA. dua tu saja. jadi pilih. Samada awak nak sambung belajar kat tempat lain, pergi cari university mana yg nak terima awak n cerita dekat saya syarat2 kemasukan, bila exam semua tu. kalau tak, awak kena cari kerja, saya x peduli. haritu attend tak taklimat cari kerja?"

[me] "err,tak" *panic mood*

[sensei] "mcm mana awak boleh tenang mcm ni? awak x tanya ke perancangan kawan2 sekelas awak?"

[me] "tanya. kawan2 semua nak sambung." 

Sensei mengeluh dan tulis something dekat komputer n print, sign lepas tu bagi.

[sensei] "haa. org lain semua dah nampak jelas nak buat apa. awak ni ja terkontang kanting. awak tau tak kalau application mintak kerja melalui tohoku university dah tutup hujung bulan 3 haritu? Ni surat rujukan utk kaunseling. ni alamat office n no phone si A. awak p jumpak encik A ni cakap awak nak cari kerja dgn syarikat jepun yg ada kat malaysia, nanti dia explain dekat awak. tapi mintak maaf dulu dekat dia sbb dah lepas dateline. "

[me] *ambik kertas* "okay"

[sensei] "so tugas awak utk sem 7 ni yg pertama adalah untuk p kaunseling n BETULKAN PEMIKIRAN AWAK TU DULU. lepas dah clear, pilih and stick to the plan. tapi saya warning siap2 ni, saya x suka planning yg separuh jalan. Faham ke?" 

[me] "haittttt". T_T 

balik rumah dengan 1001 rasa. haaa~ first time diasak soalan bertubi-tubi. rasa sedih sangat. alaa, bukannya x serius pasal masa depan, but i was not born to be an engineer. jangan tanya kenapa (T_T)

i was born to be a princess perhaps. hihi XD 

in dream. haha. 

okay, okay serious. i am now actually, you know, kind of forcing myself to put some effort in looking for a job. with the help of my professor of course. but, not to worry, it's not like i hate the profession as an engineer. i have a concrete reason why i dont really prefer to work as an engineer for now. but, i'll give it a try insyaAllah, because why not? after few weeks of serious thinking, search and seek for advice session, i concluded it as a win-win situation. i'll find a job, and if i get one, i'll give it all my best. i'll get experience, and you get my passion. fair enough? but if i dont get one, i'll stay at home. hihi d: oh no, i should have a plan B. 

so many things need to be decided during this final year. i guess we can call it as "decision making year". big decision. BIG.

may Allah ease everything to all of us. 

p/s : dont forget to istikharah before making any decision. you wouldn't know if the thing you decide is the best for you, but HE knows. ^^