i gained weight and lose height

i gained weight and lose height. now how's that sound? strange. haha

i was trying to clean up the room, basically just arranging the books, and sorting out the files and documents when i found this!!!!

these are my medical checkup certificates. and hey, look at the dates!

on may 2012, my weight was 50.2 kg and my height was 154 cm.

and the latest one, on may 2014 (perhaps it's still the same now), my weight is 50.3 kg and my height is 153.4 cm!

and do you know what that means?!!! it means i have gained 100 gram in my weight and lose 0.6 cm in my height, IN TWO YEARS!!!

i didn't know whether this is a good news or not. but to know that you become shorter, kinda little bit scary. but anyway, the doctor said i'm just fine, the way i am now. but actually, i think i'm a little bit chubby. because i have gained like 5 kilos since i came to japan, although it stays the same until now. i was only 45 kilos back then when i was studying in UM! T_T

so if i get shorter by time, i should put down some weight too. kann~ simple mathematics. otherwise the BMI will rise. i'll go on diet during this final semester. oyeah, let's do this! let's put it in the final year 's resolution. (^^)/

p/s : 3 entries in less than 48hours? pardon me. i was just, i dont know, making use of my excessive energy for today. haha. i wrote this entry just before i go to sleep. good night yalls!

true love.

salam wbt. hye!

that day i watched maleficent while doing the laundry. memang akan pasang movie kalau nak settle laundry, segala sidai baju, lipat baju dan iron baju, kalau tak hati x senang sebab kena fokus pada satu benda. paling2 kurang kalau xdak movie, mesti nak sambil dengar lagu ke memasak ke. multitasker sangat kan. semoga kalau dah kawin and ada anak nanti, akan terus jadi super multitasker mummy. amin. ^^

okay, back to the topic. maleficent (nama orang taw. lakonan mantap si cantik angelina jolie). basically cerita dia pasal si maleficent ni, dia bukan manusia, dia macam ada kuasa sikit pastu ada sayap and penjaga hutan. lepas tu dia macam jatuh cinta dengan sorang lelaki manusia ni lepas tu lelaki tu tipu dia and ambik sayap dia bagi dekat raja dengan harapan dapat ganjaran dari raja. (jahat kan! gerrrram taw).

lepas tu si maleficent ni pon jadi marah and berubah jadi pendendam. and one day lelaki jahat tu dah kahwin and dapat anak. maleficent ni pergi and curse anak lelaki jahat tu. dia kata bila baby girl tu dah umur 16, dia akan tercucuk jarum mesin jahit lepas tu tidur selama-lamanya. lepas tu lelaki jahat tu merayu la, then maleficent cakap, alright curse tu akan terbatal kalau ada true love kiss.

pastu, eh panjang la pulak cerita. baby girl tu ayah dia hantar untuk dibesarkan kat hutan sebab takut terkena jarum mesin jahit. and kat hutan tu baby girl tu membesar and selalu la terjumpa maleficent. and main-main dengan maleficent. maleficent ni jadi sayang kat aurora (nama baby girl tu), pastu menyesal and cuba cancel kan curse tu, tapi x boleh. pembantu dia suggest suruh ambik sorang lelaki ni yang macam nampak suka kat aurora, and nanti kalau aurora dah kena curse, suruh lelaki tu kiss dia.

and i teringat la maleficent ni cakap ceni,

"don't be stupid, there's no such thing as TRUE LOVE. that's why i cursed her that way"

kesian maleficent, sebab dia terus x percaya dah yang true love tu exist. haih, semua pasal lelaki jahat tu. then entah macam mana, si aurora ni pergi bandar time umur 16 tahun birthday dia and terkena jarum mesin jahit tu and tidur selama-lamanya. si maleficent pon bawak lelaki yang macam suka kat aurora tu and suruh kiss tapi x berjaya (nampak sangat bukan true love. haha d:)

maleficent sedih sangat and dia pergi usap kepala aurora and nangis. dia cakap, apa yang dia buat tu adalah perkara paling kejam sebab dendam dia dah terainaya aurora yang xde salah pon. dia make a promise that aurora will face no harm as long as she is alive. and maleficent kiss dahi aurora. anddddd, aurora pon terjaga.

TADAA! that is TRUE LOVE.

it just like mine! i love these girls to bits!

actually true love does not only happen between a woman and a guy, or between families only. kan! mostly people think that way, padahal boleh je jadi sesama housemate, sesama usrahmate, sesama classmate. as long as we are sincere with the relationship, sayang each other kerana Allah. so that is true love. dan Allah janji yang mereka yang berkasih sayang kerana Allah tu akan akan Allah bagi perlindungan pada meraka di hari akhirat kelak (':

hihi. i just love the message from the movie! tengoklaaa! macam mana i excited gila tengok ending cerita frozen, that's how excited i am when watching maleficent. haha. sebab entahlah, bukannya x setuju buat fairy tales love story between prince and princess, tapi mungkin sebab bila buat cerita pasal love between siblings and love between friends (maleficent dgn aurora) tu kan, rasa lebih dekat dengan diri, so rasa excited. perhaps when i get married one day i'll be excited to watch love story movie between a guy and a woman. haha. i dont know. i tengok mama abah excited betul tengok drama melayu rinduawak200%. setiap hari excited balik rumah nak tengok and time i balik malaysia sat haritu sampai berebut remote tv. serius x faham -_-" sebab i rasa boring tengok cerita tu, time tu i nak tengok cerita leverage kat axn tapi x berjaya. you know, kuasa veto parents. so mungkin bila dah kawin nanti, i'll excitedly watch that genre of drama/movie together with le hubby just like my parents now. who knows, people change d:

fatihin in malaysia. and fatihin in japan.

salam wbt! hye! fatihin is back. it has been like months! oh my God, im such a bad blogger. -.-"

alhamdulillah. praise to God for still giving His blessings to let us live in this world. 

so how are you? me. i just came back from a short summer break in malaysia. and yes i am back in japan!.. and now, counting months to G.R.A.D.U.A.T.E from engineering school!!! insyaAllah. 

i realized something really interesting about my daily style when i was transferring all the pictures that i took during a month of my summer break in my hometown because yeah, because there aren't enough space (you know a girl who take like 200 shots a week, 32G of phone memory won't be enough obviously).

all the pictures of myself in malaysia is really bright and colorful. but, in japan, it's otherwise.. mostly i look like budak sekolah menengah duduk asrama, hujung minggu pon kena bangun awai pagi, x mandi terus pergi prep. serabut punya style -_-

fatihin in malaysia. 

you know i always dress up having a princess feeling before going out somewhere, even to kedai runcit just to buy my favorite tropicana ice cream. i love skirts, long skirt. mom said it looks good on me. ^^

fatihin's outfit in japan. 

this was during matsushima island visit. but basically this is the same outfit that i usually wear to laboratory. simple jeans + shirts + shawl. malas2 sangat, hari yang malas betul tu, i'll just go with uniqlo pants and cardigans. you dont wanna see me on my lazy day. trust me. so plain. =.=

perhaps the lab work has influenced me a lot on the way i dress up. you know, you can't wear your favorite wavy, flare chiffon skirt or styling your scarf loose messy "hana tajima" way when you have a big turbine machine in your laboratory that will evilly suck everything flowy and flare. i dont wanna die for being a hijabista. gituuu. haha. safety first girl! safety first! 

and in japan, i think there are not much colors of outfit to choose for. or, maybe the japanese don't really wear bright colors so the shops decided to cut all colors and sell only dull brown, black, blue and pastel color. haha. okay joking d: but seriously, it's really hard to find a shocking pink blouse or emerald green skirt like we used to see girls donning it everywhere in malaysia. 

and i once asked few of my japanese friends to describe malaysian in one word, and most of them said "COLORFUL". hahahaha. actually, on that day, i wore pink blouse with turquoise jacket, paired with jeans, shocking pink sneakers and flowery scarf XD  

okay that's all, short update. nothing interesting. i'll write again later. i love blogging. i really do. it just that, it's all about time you know. *alasan* haha. bye! good day everyone! ^^

p/s : was thinking to make a big transformation to this blog. new templates and writing topics perhaps? so it would be more organized. hahaha < kata xdak masa. takpa, angan2 ja dulu d:

ignorance.

ignorance is a bliss. you know, some people believe that. 

but the fact is, it hurts more when you ignore. ignorance, and it's pitiful state. 

i read somewhere recently someone wrote her thought about it in the social network, 

"imagine how much happier you would be if you knew no evil. 

therefore, i believe that ignorance is bliss "

i dont know. i dont know. i just dont really agree with that.

because we are living together in this world, sharing all the things that God provides for us on the earth. we shouldn't be too selfish by keeping the happiness to our own.

reality, sometimes hurts. but still, i wanna know the truth. and learn to accept it. 

lets share the pain together. and lets share the happiness. happiness is not a "real happiness" when you have nobody to share it with right?

looking at this picture, i remembered that one year has passed. it was exactly one year when i made such a pretty lame, kiddo wishes when i was walking at the same flower park last spring. 

should have grown up by now, but still, i have the same wishes XD

picture taken 3weeks ago at michinoku, sendai. (:

hello final year! (':

salam wbt. 

alhamdulillah, dah jejak kaki masuk final year. yes! final year kan. kelas pon ada 3 ketul je, tu pon xde exam, semua presentation. so sejak beberapa hari ni seharian duduk lab, baca research paper sampai bosan. nak souji(sapu sampah) pon senior tak bagi, dia suruh p study or sembang2 sesama labmate or tengok ja apa orang lain buat. mcm la baru masuk lab semalam, dah setahun dah, but still they are treating me like freshie =.=

penat dgn keadaan yg, "nak kena buat apa ni?" i got the courage masuk bilik sensei n tanya, 

[me] "sensei, forth year sem 7 ni selalu kena buat apa?"

[sensei] "Haa fin. dah jelas dgn masa depan kamu nak buat apa?"

[me] "Dah. Nak balik malaysia" *keyakinan padu*

[sensei] "Balik lepas tu nak buat apa?" 

[me] "Kerja ke sambung belajar ke. nanti dah sampai malaysia nanti saya fikir"

[sensei] "Apa? saya x pernah dgr jawapan mcm ni. orang2 malaysia mmg mcm ni ke? senpai2 malaysia awak tahun lepas semua buat apa skrg?"

[me] "Ada yang dah kerja. ada yg balik malaysia dulu baru cari kerja. tapi biasa kat malaysia dah graduate baru org cari kerja"

[sensei] "ha? saya xkan biarkan student2 saya balik tanpa ada masa depan yg jelas. sem 7 ni sepatutnya KENA BELAJAR UTK AMBIK EXAM MASTER atau CARI KERJA. dua tu saja. jadi pilih. Samada awak nak sambung belajar kat tempat lain, pergi cari university mana yg nak terima awak n cerita dekat saya syarat2 kemasukan, bila exam semua tu. kalau tak, awak kena cari kerja, saya x peduli. haritu attend tak taklimat cari kerja?"

[me] "err,tak" *panic mood*

[sensei] "mcm mana awak boleh tenang mcm ni? awak x tanya ke perancangan kawan2 sekelas awak?"

[me] "tanya. kawan2 semua nak sambung." 

Sensei mengeluh dan tulis something dekat komputer n print, sign lepas tu bagi.

[sensei] "haa. org lain semua dah nampak jelas nak buat apa. awak ni ja terkontang kanting. awak tau tak kalau application mintak kerja melalui tohoku university dah tutup hujung bulan 3 haritu? Ni surat rujukan utk kaunseling. ni alamat office n no phone si A. awak p jumpak encik A ni cakap awak nak cari kerja dgn syarikat jepun yg ada kat malaysia, nanti dia explain dekat awak. tapi mintak maaf dulu dekat dia sbb dah lepas dateline. "

[me] *ambik kertas* "okay"

[sensei] "so tugas awak utk sem 7 ni yg pertama adalah untuk p kaunseling n BETULKAN PEMIKIRAN AWAK TU DULU. lepas dah clear, pilih and stick to the plan. tapi saya warning siap2 ni, saya x suka planning yg separuh jalan. Faham ke?" 

[me] "haittttt". T_T 

balik rumah dengan 1001 rasa. haaa~ first time diasak soalan bertubi-tubi. rasa sedih sangat. alaa, bukannya x serius pasal masa depan, but i was not born to be an engineer. jangan tanya kenapa (T_T)

i was born to be a princess perhaps. hihi XD 

in dream. haha. 

okay, okay serious. i am now actually, you know, kind of forcing myself to put some effort in looking for a job. with the help of my professor of course. but, not to worry, it's not like i hate the profession as an engineer. i have a concrete reason why i dont really prefer to work as an engineer for now. but, i'll give it a try insyaAllah, because why not? after few weeks of serious thinking, search and seek for advice session, i concluded it as a win-win situation. i'll find a job, and if i get one, i'll give it all my best. i'll get experience, and you get my passion. fair enough? but if i dont get one, i'll stay at home. hihi d: oh no, i should have a plan B. 

so many things need to be decided during this final year. i guess we can call it as "decision making year". big decision. BIG.

may Allah ease everything to all of us. 

p/s : dont forget to istikharah before making any decision. you wouldn't know if the thing you decide is the best for you, but HE knows. ^^